have you ever felt like you wanted to back in time to when you got that happy butterfly feeling about something you loved whenever it got mentioned?
if no, im sorry this might seem weird, or if yes and you just dont get why im making this, but do you ever wanna go back just to remember that feeling?
for me at the moment, im just looking through some old stories i saved on my computer about Creepypasta [like Jeff's story, BEN's, EJ's, and a few others]. i dont even remember the last time i saw these, but for some reason they dont make me as happy to read them anymore like the first couple times i did. when i first read them i got so happy cause they were amazingly written and i just thought that, for killers, they were pretty cool and badass, which i respected them for in a way. and whenever i found someone to talk to that liked them as well, i got happy and that butterfly gut feeling cause no one in my family liked them, they thought i was going crazy myself.
i loved it back then though...
but now, i just reread Jeff's story, and i dont have that happy feeling anymore, no matter how much i try to think about the first time i've read it. i think its cause ive talked about it so much or something cause all i can do is remember that feeling instead, though its very faint. and its a perverted way, for those who might think that is, get your head outa the gutter! it was more like... kinda a respect i felt towards them? im not sure, but what im trying to say, or ask, i dont even know anymore, is that somehow the Creepypasta's seem different to me and i want to do something or ask for help to bring back that freaky magic that made them amazing.
i still think their amazing, dont get me wrong, but im just in distress because i miss the feeling of butterfly's in my stomach when me and my friends talked about them. this whole thing probably sounds completely stupid, and i dont blame you if you think that, in all honesty i think it makes no sense other than inside my head because i dont explain things very well.
if you read this, thank you, if you did and still dont understand, thank you anyway. im just under a lot of stress already and im not good at dealing with it, mainly the only thing that could help was that happy feeling i've been trying to explain... im so stupid, sorry for wasting your time! thanks for reading though c: im gonna go try to read more Creepypasta